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totchipanda) wrote2010-01-05 11:09 pm
totchipanda) wrote2010-01-05 11:09 pm
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I've had this kind-of epiphany building for the last day or so, starting when I started going through my old photos and such. I used to take a bazillion pictures of my dolls several times a week, it seems. Right now they are sitting in a clothes basket, most of them half dressed and all of them certainly hairless. I put them in there to keep them safe from Smudge's teeth in like, October or something. (Saki's leg has been dangling out of it the entire time, and isn't looking worse for it. Just the first two little teeth marks she put in him all those years ago.)
I'm kind of at a loss... I'm not involved in the community anymore (not that I ever really was, mind you. Much too hard to keep up with), I haven't been able to buy stuff for them, let alone any new ones, in uhhmmm... I think it would be about 3 years now, I'm much too lazy to make them anything, and so I have something like $2k worth of resin just sitting here collecting dust. I don't feel the same attachment to them. I rarely take them with me anywhere (this may be more because they get heavy, fast. How do you peoples with more than 3 manage it??) anymore, I'm apathetic at best towards local meets (they are always at bad times for me, but I never speak up to say so, since I know I likely won't go anyway) and maybe it just seems like the fan attitude degenerated like every fan attitude always does? Like, back when I got my first one (oh Mia, almost 5 years...) the local scene was pretty small and we were all YAY DORRIES!! and now... man, you shoulda seen the beauties people had at Animethon. Just a few years ago, we had a dozen dolls, one of which was a head, and this year there were like, 40.
I guess I just feel bad that they're sitting around doing nothing except hold my coat up when I chuck it down on them (bring it on, fanbrats) and I wonder what I am ever going to do with them. I'm asking myself, can I bear to part with them? I likely won't, since this funk seems to come down every year when I have barely looked at them for two months (nano and extra money, you kinda suck for that). Maybe I will pull them out after tomorrow's cleaning spree...
(gawd, look at that face :3 ILU Saki)
ETA: One of Saki's toes has a resin deformity on it. In the over-4 years I've had him, I never noticed it. I bet I can work it into his character XD
Saki: Yeah, I stubbed it really bad when I was a kid, it's never grown right since...
ETA2: (snickers) Ren has a mullet-tastic wig on. If I make him some black hakama and kimono with white underthingy, and a little armband, he can cosplay as Kaien-dono XD
I'm kind of at a loss... I'm not involved in the community anymore (not that I ever really was, mind you. Much too hard to keep up with), I haven't been able to buy stuff for them, let alone any new ones, in uhhmmm... I think it would be about 3 years now, I'm much too lazy to make them anything, and so I have something like $2k worth of resin just sitting here collecting dust. I don't feel the same attachment to them. I rarely take them with me anywhere (this may be more because they get heavy, fast. How do you peoples with more than 3 manage it??) anymore, I'm apathetic at best towards local meets (they are always at bad times for me, but I never speak up to say so, since I know I likely won't go anyway) and maybe it just seems like the fan attitude degenerated like every fan attitude always does? Like, back when I got my first one (oh Mia, almost 5 years...) the local scene was pretty small and we were all YAY DORRIES!! and now... man, you shoulda seen the beauties people had at Animethon. Just a few years ago, we had a dozen dolls, one of which was a head, and this year there were like, 40.
I guess I just feel bad that they're sitting around doing nothing except hold my coat up when I chuck it down on them (bring it on, fanbrats) and I wonder what I am ever going to do with them. I'm asking myself, can I bear to part with them? I likely won't, since this funk seems to come down every year when I have barely looked at them for two months (nano and extra money, you kinda suck for that). Maybe I will pull them out after tomorrow's cleaning spree...
(gawd, look at that face :3 ILU Saki)
ETA: One of Saki's toes has a resin deformity on it. In the over-4 years I've had him, I never noticed it. I bet I can work it into his character XD
Saki: Yeah, I stubbed it really bad when I was a kid, it's never grown right since...
ETA2: (snickers) Ren has a mullet-tastic wig on. If I make him some black hakama and kimono with white underthingy, and a little armband, he can cosplay as Kaien-dono XD