But whyyyy
Jun. 5th, 2018 09:54 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
totchipandaPosting this to get the weasels out ofbmy head. I think I've hit the wall of terror and self-doubt. Id run around screaming but hiding in a pile of blankets sounds more like it. Yep, its about that time.
Yesterday i just faffed around the internet. Today i faffed around the internet and napped (poor decision, ill be up way too late). And i KNOW its because im scared. I feel pretty confident in the redingote mockup but im also TERRIFIED because i dont want to fuck it up. I dont really want to make a practice one in poly but its also too scary to dive right in. Augh. Anxiety you are the actual worst.
I dug out the fabric i intend to make 1830s out of. Every pattern i looked at says at least 7 yards ans i have 6 (even tho im canadian and measure lengths of fabric in metres, the distance from my fingertips to my nose with my head turned away is 37", so a yard is slightly more accurate lol) but of course i am le broke (and wondering how im going to afford this trip at all) and will be trying to make my own pattern. Wheeeeee! One more thing to add to the dumpster fire that is my brain right now.
The "but why's" are settling in too. Im never gonna wear any of these again so whats the point? Goddamnit brain.
Unrelated: i had to reinstall Instagram last night and have since had a pile of random accounts follow me. Also had one guy send a message that got caught in their spam filter. All i could read was "hey beautiful lady" ahahhahaaa no you dont get to talk to me.
Yesterday i just faffed around the internet. Today i faffed around the internet and napped (poor decision, ill be up way too late). And i KNOW its because im scared. I feel pretty confident in the redingote mockup but im also TERRIFIED because i dont want to fuck it up. I dont really want to make a practice one in poly but its also too scary to dive right in. Augh. Anxiety you are the actual worst.
I dug out the fabric i intend to make 1830s out of. Every pattern i looked at says at least 7 yards ans i have 6 (even tho im canadian and measure lengths of fabric in metres, the distance from my fingertips to my nose with my head turned away is 37", so a yard is slightly more accurate lol) but of course i am le broke (and wondering how im going to afford this trip at all) and will be trying to make my own pattern. Wheeeeee! One more thing to add to the dumpster fire that is my brain right now.
The "but why's" are settling in too. Im never gonna wear any of these again so whats the point? Goddamnit brain.
Unrelated: i had to reinstall Instagram last night and have since had a pile of random accounts follow me. Also had one guy send a message that got caught in their spam filter. All i could read was "hey beautiful lady" ahahhahaaa no you dont get to talk to me.
