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totchipandaI'm apparently in e-organizing mode. A couple days ago I started organizing my downloads, pictures and document files (in preparation for moving them on to the external drive and reformatting my laptop), and cleaning out my oh... probably 900 emails, in one account alone. It's going OK, I suppose, aside from Hotmail's horrid new platform of Outlook (I like Outlook... as a desktop application, not a web-based program). I'm only in the end of 2014 and have removed a ton of them. I really don't need old invoices and shipping notices of things that arrived ages ago. Had to stop for now because it kept glitching and freezing up on me.
I have been enjoying the old comments I kept (but did delete more of them than keeping anymore), and forgot a few things on there lol. I have a couple of costumes to add to my list of Shit To Make (tm). Er, once I make one. A real one, I mean, not the one I made last summer. Not that I have fabric for some of this stuff.
But going through the old comments specifically made me realize how much my mental health has deteriorated over the past year. I'm starting to wonder if my February Blues are complicated by the anxiety, because the thoughts I have when I'm anxious overlap with the depression, and perhaps the velociraptors ARE the anxiety, and the depression is more... Sad-Beast. Bears some thought. I'm also coming to realize that writing my Feelings out is not the appropriate way to deal with them anymore. I have been posting here for years, and recently in a forum, and while it started with realizing that the forum was really not the best place to work through this stuff, neither is LJ. I'm sorry for all the boring content from me of late, and that I haven't been commenting on anyone else's stuff. I still read my flist multiple times every day, and I am seeing what you post. The dinosaurs are just chewing on everything in my brain and I need to get them sorted out.
One of the comments I came across was wanting to reduce my time periods and projects, and I had cut a few things out, but I think I need to trim out more. There are Regency events happening locally, so I will keep creating for those, and my Regency ladies expressed interest in 18th century stuff (one of them is currently at CoCo and had a ship in her hair tonight! It looked so cool in the pictures!), plus it was one of my first loves so I'm not dropping it either. I really really want to get into Victorian stuff again, and some up-to-19teens. Need to make final decision about my Elizabethan stuff, costumes I've already made, etc.
All of that is at least a next-week project. I have only a handful of days to be sewing for next weekend's con!
I have been enjoying the old comments I kept (but did delete more of them than keeping anymore), and forgot a few things on there lol. I have a couple of costumes to add to my list of Shit To Make (tm). Er, once I make one. A real one, I mean, not the one I made last summer. Not that I have fabric for some of this stuff.
But going through the old comments specifically made me realize how much my mental health has deteriorated over the past year. I'm starting to wonder if my February Blues are complicated by the anxiety, because the thoughts I have when I'm anxious overlap with the depression, and perhaps the velociraptors ARE the anxiety, and the depression is more... Sad-Beast. Bears some thought. I'm also coming to realize that writing my Feelings out is not the appropriate way to deal with them anymore. I have been posting here for years, and recently in a forum, and while it started with realizing that the forum was really not the best place to work through this stuff, neither is LJ. I'm sorry for all the boring content from me of late, and that I haven't been commenting on anyone else's stuff. I still read my flist multiple times every day, and I am seeing what you post. The dinosaurs are just chewing on everything in my brain and I need to get them sorted out.
One of the comments I came across was wanting to reduce my time periods and projects, and I had cut a few things out, but I think I need to trim out more. There are Regency events happening locally, so I will keep creating for those, and my Regency ladies expressed interest in 18th century stuff (one of them is currently at CoCo and had a ship in her hair tonight! It looked so cool in the pictures!), plus it was one of my first loves so I'm not dropping it either. I really really want to get into Victorian stuff again, and some up-to-19teens. Need to make final decision about my Elizabethan stuff, costumes I've already made, etc.
All of that is at least a next-week project. I have only a handful of days to be sewing for next weekend's con!
