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Roomie is more or less fine. The doctor he saw thinks it's a rotator cuff injury, and had just recovered from one himself earlier in the year. He's had an x-ray and will be taking pain meds and topical creams, and will likely need to go to PT. I only strained mine once, not a full on injury, and it was a week of stretching and exercises to get it to stop being so angry.

These last couple days have been hard, emotionally. It was coming out in my hands, causing them to hurt and not want to move well when doing fine tasks (so like, everything). The last time that happened, I was weeks away from a full on anxious breakdown (in a hotel room at coco, that was fun). When I started listing off potential reasons, they stopped hurting as bad. But uh. That does mean I'm in a considerable amount of non-physical pain for it to start like that again. Sunday was Guido's last vet appointment. Next week was his dental surgery. And then August... is going to be extra difficult. Just gotta keep taking the meds and acknowledging the events. I've lost track of the exact number of days and weeks but... I remember these ones.

As such! I have not sewn anything. I did wear the modified dress-into-skirt and its really a little too snug. OR is that because my period started today and I may be a little bloated? (Today's fun game is cramps or gas?) And because my brain is a mess, I went on a deep dive to try and find the petticoat pattern I made a jillion years ago out of an eaaaaaaaaarly gothic & lolita bible (vol 8!), to the point that I tried to log in to my old LJ account (the one I didn't delete). It won't let me reset the password bc it will only send to the registered email address, that I don't even remember which one it was but I absolutely do not have access to it anymore. Granted this was all on mobile, maybe there are other options on desktop. But it was more because I wanted access to a community I was a member of many years ago, and thankfully that was still up, AND the post I had made about the petticoat was not locked.

So I had a photocopy of the book page and measurements of each piece and not much else. Turns out I still had the book too, so I fished that out the other night. I've decided to keep the page and the pattern and toss the rest. It pains me to just toss books, but like everything else that had been in my apartment, it's tainted with asbestos dust. I'm planning to only keep books I can't easily replace, replace the ones I really liked, and toss the rest. Just wish I'd known that before the insurance claim was finalized. Alas.

Goodness, see what I mean about my brain being a mess? So yes, I wanted to work on the petticoat anyway, since it was on my mind with my two skirts needing some oomph. I have materials that I bought specifically for that purpose like... 15 years ago, probably. I made the first one in black (sold it), bought the materials for a white one, never made them. I've been eyeing the bergere hat blank I bought in 2017, debating a brain hat or a simple beribboned one, and I have a mix of fabrics I could use. Poly taffeta and organza, or silk organza (white), or silk fabric and poly organza (black). The whites were destined for this petticoat. Do I repurpose them for the hat, or actually do that petticoat MANY MANY MANY years later?

This honestly feels like the times before I was medicated. This kind of mania comes and goes, but it doesn't feel quite like anxiety, so I really out to ask about ADHD screening.

Things I MUST do:
Finish the commission
Continue on pants quest

Things I WANT to do:
Pants 5ever
New stays
Angelica mock up
Finish up the Edwardian stuff
Really get back to 20 in 20
Pet-en-l'air
OH i have trim coming for my silk sack, so that will happen sooner!

Yeeeeaaaahhhhh if I could just FOCUS that would be greaaaaaaaaaaat.