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totchipandaOh wow, I just noticed today that I've had this journal for 10 years. What the what? TEN YEARS?! The internet age is still so young, this is the longest-running handle I've ever used (I haven't changed my fanfiction.net one, which is older, because I don't want to go through all the work of reuploading my few fanfics, and NaNoWriMo's, because I don't want to lose my "join date"). I've had other LJs but this one has stuck around the longest. That feels kinda weird.
My first LJ had 900 entries when I hit a "I HATE EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE THIS ALL SUCKS" and deleted each entry manually because I didn't to delete the name. Sometimes I regret doing that, and then I realize that it's probably just as well. I know a bunch of those entries were just typical 20-year-old-me's whinging about whatever. I know for sure a good sized handful concerned a boy I enjoyed looking at. My second one is still up, friends-locked like it always was, and I keep it because it has some community accesses I don't want to lose and also don't want to follow with this journal (weird logic, I know), but I did officially "deactivate" it a few years ago. I started rereading some old entries and holy crap on a stick it was painful. It was a very angry time of my life and I'm happy to say that I've moved past it.
This journal started out as a doll-only journal, and you'd see in the early entries (the first couple of years) that that was all I talked about. That's what it was meant for. When my cat died suddenly in 2006, I started the shift away from doll-only focus and into other things. I sure don't post about things much anymore, and I honestly feel bad for not posting much, and also for not using it for more things, like in-progress sewing or knitting, especially since it's so easy to share pictures from my phone (sort of... the car picture last entry posted upside down, and honestly the app kinda sucks but not much more than LJ's front page...). And sometimes I feel like I don't want to use it at all? But I do like the casual nature of a personal journal like this, it feels much more natural than the full blog. I dunno. Someday I might figure out where the heck I'm going with this train of thought. I might not be posting much, but I AM reading.
Anyway, happy 10th anniversary,![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
totchipanda :) Here's to 10 more years. Cheers.
My first LJ had 900 entries when I hit a "I HATE EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE THIS ALL SUCKS" and deleted each entry manually because I didn't to delete the name. Sometimes I regret doing that, and then I realize that it's probably just as well. I know a bunch of those entries were just typical 20-year-old-me's whinging about whatever. I know for sure a good sized handful concerned a boy I enjoyed looking at. My second one is still up, friends-locked like it always was, and I keep it because it has some community accesses I don't want to lose and also don't want to follow with this journal (weird logic, I know), but I did officially "deactivate" it a few years ago. I started rereading some old entries and holy crap on a stick it was painful. It was a very angry time of my life and I'm happy to say that I've moved past it.
This journal started out as a doll-only journal, and you'd see in the early entries (the first couple of years) that that was all I talked about. That's what it was meant for. When my cat died suddenly in 2006, I started the shift away from doll-only focus and into other things. I sure don't post about things much anymore, and I honestly feel bad for not posting much, and also for not using it for more things, like in-progress sewing or knitting, especially since it's so easy to share pictures from my phone (sort of... the car picture last entry posted upside down, and honestly the app kinda sucks but not much more than LJ's front page...). And sometimes I feel like I don't want to use it at all? But I do like the casual nature of a personal journal like this, it feels much more natural than the full blog. I dunno. Someday I might figure out where the heck I'm going with this train of thought. I might not be posting much, but I AM reading.
Anyway, happy 10th anniversary,
totchipanda :) Here's to 10 more years. Cheers.
