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The anxiety ball got worse over the rest of the week and by yesterday afternoon I was just a mess. We had a retirement potluck for a coworker in another department, but I couldn't decide on anything to bring so I opted to bring nothing and then took myself out of the building for lunch. I didn't even say goodbye. Anxiety says that it will look like I snubbed her, but that wasn't really the case. The anxiety also kept me from committing to it in the first place. Sigh, so much fun :(

In addition to that, I had decided to take myself to Carl's Jr for lunch, and while I stood in line, my dad was asking me to come to my sister's birthday lunch on Sunday. Sure, I said, if someone can cover me. I can't afford to eat at a decently priced restaurant (Washingtonians, we are going to Red Robin's) but I can afford to spend just a little bit less at Carl's Jr? UGH my brain was eating me alive over that one. I didn't even really taste the burger, which is even worse cuz I love Carl's Jr but I can't go there very often because it's so expensive! (I have a standing 15% offer... that I forgot to bring with me.) Brain weasels, stooooop.

raspberrybelle suggested a colouring book for when the anxiety spiral starts, and I wanted to do it since my aunt gave me an Outlander colouring book, but I have no idea where my colouring pencils are.

I want to sew something that is not my costume. I had issues with sleeves today and the skirt lining is stretching more than the fashion layer, so now I have to figure out a way to pull it up so it doesn't show. I wanted to be gluing a million jewels to it today so that I can start on the other pieces I need. Alas.

Dance started today. It was great.