totchipanda

Currently hanging out in LAX for my flight home. We were emailed at 5:26am that our noon flight had been delayed 3 hours. Buuut the shuttle booker couldnt get our shuttle changed and my roommates and i didnt have internet until we got to the lobby, so we got here at like 8am (after a rather terrifying drive and him dropping us off at the wrong terminal) and have been hanging out ever since. Well at least we're here and they gave us meal vouchers.

I learned a lot this past weekend, both about the event and myself. Certain things (a lot of things) set off the anxiety in ways that i hadnt anticipated, that i thought i had under control (or at least was aware of) and really didnt. Im still really glad i went, so grateful for the people i did meet, relieved no one threw me out as a horrible impostor, and overall i had a great time. I might write more when im home and have a keyboard :)

We're already planning next year, though i have to find a way to tell my mother that she can go, but she will not be travelling or otherwise be hanging out with me or my crew. That is a hard no. (i also don't want to see her in the garment district. She already can't get into her sewing room for all the unsewn fabric in it. Yes im a judgy asshole about this)