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Yesterday I talked to my site boss about the future of things at the company we work for, and then had a lot of FEELINGS. There are changes afoot, as things often are particularly in large companies like this, and they impact me directly. I will be moving back to the main office for my team (farewell large windows!) but we don't know when. One of the tasks I was doing will be shared with the other city, and that person is lovely but it's still a change. My site boss is asking me to take on some of her little tasks (great, give it to me!) but of course there will be future changes to that too, though probably not until late spring/summer.

I had my therapy appointment on Tuesday and completely forgot about all of these changes, bc I was so focused on the other things that had happened -- my trip, the proposal acceptance, voluntarily going to an event that I knew my mother was at (we had been discussing that a few sessions ago). I said "we can talk about that next time" bc it was literally at the end of the session.

I do feel stagnant, and the only thing I can think of at this time to help would be to keep access to a laptop so that, if I needed to concentrate on something, I could take it to another location (even to the lunchroom!) to help keep distractions at a minimum. One of my coworkers is prone to yelling my name just to get my attention and I fricken hate it. Site boss said she would ask. She has also said many times that she sees potential in me and wants to help develop my skills. I need to ask her what she means by this, bc then I can take steps towards that too lol.

Of course I keep thinking about how this might precipitate a huge change in my life with a move. I think moving to Toronto proper is not feasible, it is SO expensive. Currently I was seeing single bedroom apartments at 512 sq ft rent for $1400 a month. Pickin's were very slim and often had no pets allowed. So I would need to look into the greater area and possibly nearby cities. I have not looked into the employment situation yet. Potentially I could switch within my company, but I want to keep my options open. And of course none of this is even remotely possible yet.

Long weekend this weekend. I have plans for Monday with another movie-with-the-lights-left-low-to-craft, and I just saw last night that right before that they are showing one of my favourite movies EVER. It would leave me with about an hour between show times if I wanted to do both and honestly I would very likely be watching that movie anyway. The theatre is next to a deeeeeelicious restaurant that I could hit up for lunch. I'm very seriously considering it.

For the rest of the weekend, perhaps I will see if my friend wants to get together like we'd planned earlier, or else I will just work on sewing things. I need to get that thread so I can finish the Scout dress, and then I can work on... hmm. I pulled out the blouse pattern for the striped mustard fabric, so that's a distinct possibility, and perhaps I could get grey wool trousers started too. There are many closures to sew on many things.