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[totchipanda]

Who's got two thumbs and is suffering a depression period right now?

If you guessed me, ding ding ding! You win a prize!

It's the same as February... period of mania followed by "i just don't care". I want to work on a bunch of sewing but eh, too much effort. I should eat something but eh, too much effort. I should just turn off my computer and go to bed but eh, too much effort.

I did, however, get into my stays so I could try my vest on (eh), and then decided to try on my curtain-along gown just for shits and giggles. It's awaiting sleeves, hemming and trimming right now. Worth it. I felt so pretty. I really miss my full-length mirror though, I couldn't get any decent shots.

ETA: I almost feel like posting on FB, hey guess what. I have nothing to "be strong" for and I'm still fucking depressed.

ETA2: and I'm bloody sick of "such and such happened, what happened next will blow you away!" And I also didn't have an epiphany over the Beauty & the Beast post that everyone else seemed to. I promise I will close my social media now and work on taking care of myself. My attitude will improve when my mood does. Promise. <3

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[zoi-no-miko.livejournal.com]

It's ok! :*


(I also fucking hate all those retarded sensationalism "Upworthy" style headlines. Just tell me what the fuck you're talking about instead of trying to trick me into following the link.)

[totchipanda.livejournal.com]

Seeeeeriously. And sometimes it's kinda like NO REALLY?! responses too :/ Today's post inspired by "mom takes photos of her one-armed* daughter to prove her potential" NO REALLY?

*one-handed is more accurate. She still has most of her arm.

aHHhh I love that icon. I think I will go listen to some rockin' j-rock tunes while I mope. That will be good.

[zoi-no-miko.livejournal.com]

Best soundtrack for wallowing!!

[totchipanda.livejournal.com]

I can't remember the name of the my favourite Raphael song right now! Grrrr. I listened to it for 8 hours straight, you'd think I wouldn't forget it. (But I did find like every OTHER song I liked :D Still wanna do a ... uhm... that guy... cosplay... it'll come to me. Sweet fluffy baby bunnies it's been WAY too long since I fangirled.)

[totchipanda.livejournal.com]

WOW. Imitation White, of which there is only a live version on youtube, and Kazuki. I'm sad to admit that I forgot both of those.

[zoi-no-miko.livejournal.com]

I FIGURED IT OUT! :D

https://dl.dropboxusercontent.com/u/35011816/02%20-%20Raphael%20-%20Imitation%20White.mp3

[zoi-no-miko.livejournal.com]

Kazuki? The (dearly departed) guitarist? I can see you doing Kazuki. :3

Raphael~~~ <3 I was going to say "tell me how the song goes!" But uh, internet and non-english lyrics.
(Did it have a PV? LOL )

[totchipanda.livejournal.com]

I totally still want to cosplay Kazuki :3 I wanted to do it like 10 years ago and now I feel way more confident that I could do a costume justice.

I knew the tune, that it was on Lilac, which is in a box that I can see from where I sit at the computer, but its the bottom of a pile (though the boxes on top have patterns and towels in them, the CD box is four rows and I might have to unearth quite a few CDs before I found it), but I should have it in iTunes though not on my phone, but loading iTunes was just SO HARD (sigh, depression narratives).... I finally did open iTunes to figure out what it was lol. Thank you for the share though!

And to figure out Kazuki's name, I found some tribute videos on youtube, and the titles were all in kanji. I was like "Ka.... tsu...?" and finally opened one to see if anyone put his name in romaji lol. I can't believe (well, I can, really) I forgot his name considering the day he died was one of the most memorable days of my young working life. (I was at work and I just felt like I should be at home crying and being sad about something. And then I got home and yes... I was very sad.)

[totchipanda.livejournal.com]

WOULD YOU LOOK AT THESE TINY ADORABLE 16 YEAR OLDS OMG http://youtu.be/mmt3qEFIxRg (http://youtu.be/mmt3qEFIxRg)

[zoi-no-miko.livejournal.com]

AHHH OMG SO TINY!!! It's weird watching them so young and SRS VKEI BZNS 'cause I'm so used to Yuki being a complete goofball... XD

I could send you Imitation White!

[zoi-no-miko.livejournal.com]

I can't believe I can still randomly sing along to that. :s

OT, but I feel like your inner Cosplay-seamstress will appreciate these pictures:
http://propstore.auctionserver.net/view-auctions/catalog/id/10/lot/1495/?url=%2Fview-auctions%2Fcatalog%2Fid%2F10%2F%3Fpage%3D3
(Who knew this detail? Not any of the cosplayers I've seen, that's for sure.... lol )

[totchipanda.livejournal.com]

I certainly never noticed that her sleeves are cartridge pleated to the outside and I JUST saw it on a big screen in April O-o (Randomly reminds me that ECEE is in a couple of weeks... I don't know what I'm going to wear. Hrmph.)